Met Phoe for brunch today at Simpang.
So glad I did - because:
1) I miss her! Haven't seen my fellow dance-addict-sister-in-christ for SO LONG.
2) God meant for me to meet her, to tell me things that I needed to hear.. through her. Thank Phoe for being such a huge blessing:)

Coming back to Singapore, and hearing how my fellow peers have made it into famous dance schools like Rambert (pronounced rom- beh), ENB (English National Ballet), and North Carolina University, it just made me unsatisfied with what I had. Constantly found myself wondering "perhaps I should be studying somewhere else", "maybe life would be better if I had auditioned and got into a dance school in UK", "there would probably be better work options if I had studied in UK or US..VCA seems so lousy now". The more I harboured these thoughts, the more unhappy and envious I got.
But, Phoe reminded me today that God had placed me in Melbourne, in VCA specifically. It may not be the most prestigious school, it may not be a school that someone else would want to go to, but it's the best school that God has chosen for me.
Phoe was just sharing with me about God's calling etc, and it struck me when she said that God gives us talents to edify those around us, and God will keep blesssing us so that we can keep blessing others I know we hear it ALL THE TIME, but only today did it actually knock me on the head like a hammer. I don't know why, but I feel like.. I've just woken up after 1,000,000 million years of sleeping. The sudden realisation that.. HEY I've been so selfish all these years... doing everything just so that I can make myself happier.

God, I'm sorry for my selfish thoughts and motives. I want to bless others with the talents you've given to me..
Amen.

dance those blues away...