I thank God for my boyfriend, and friends who help me along here and there, who pick me up when I feel down in the dumps, who let me know that it wasn't normal to be so self-critical. Thank you Abi and Joel. Thank you mummy.

I guess now it's just a case of consciously telling myself to trust God, trust Him for his providence, trust him when I can't see what's ahead of me. Because whatever happens, God has plans to give me a hope and a future. Personally, I think faith is one of the most difficult things a person could ever do. Well... that's from my point of view. Other people might find it too easy.

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." -Hebrews 11:1

What I used to ask myself what that.. Does God REALLY have a plan for me? And is this plan of his a super good plan? What if He doesn't really have something great planned for me, and everything that happens is not predestination, but just chance?

I know it's very un-christian to think like that, but honestly, haven't you had such a thought? Especially in times when you don't know where you're headed, when everyone around you seems to know what they want, all except you?

Well, from this past week, I've learnt that God is a powerful God, and He's a God of hope. He's shown me his awesome-ness through Sunday's Encounter service, through quiet times, through a simple talk with Joel.

God's here with me, and He will never forsake me.

dance those blues away...